This Easter was a little different than the previous years. I was on the mend from the flu, Jerod had an upper respitory infection, and Ainsley had strep! Jerod was unable to go to church with us or watch the kids open their baskets. Oakland wondered why there were no eggs hidden in the backyard. I knew Oakland thought Ainsley got more in her basket. The truth is she did. It was an accident. Jerod usually helps me do the buying and was unable to this year because of his sickness. I felt horrible. I had major mommy guilt. I felt like I let my kids down.
We did so many fun things over the weekend and it wasn’t enough to my son. Right after we would get home he would ask what are we doing next? At the store he kept asking for more and more things…. did he not know that Easter was in a few days and that he would be getting 2 baskets full of goodies????
He was so demanding and not grateful. I had broke down in a panic attack and stood there feeling helpless and not worthy. Why was I feeling this way? I should be grateful my kids even get one toy for Easter. Easter is not about things.
Easter is about our Savior, Jesus Christ and what he did for us.
I was letting Satan steal my joy and making me feel less than. It was hard. I had felt this way before but not like this. Thankfully Jerod was there to hold me and encourage me.
As moms we all feel this way at one time or another. We all go through feeling that mommy guilt. I am blessed that I was able to talk it through with my husband and some of my best friends. Everyone needs a support system to listen and offer feedback and love.
I am choosing grace over guilt today. I am not letting Satan steal my joy.
Sweet cousins!!
The boys LOVED the confetti eggs! We now know what to buy every Easter!
Ainsley is the biggest daddy’s girl!!
Ohhh, confetti eggs. I just saw a bunch on clearance at Walmart for about 50 cents, now I'm thinking I should have bought a couple packs.
I totally get what you're saying. For holidays like Easter and Christmas we try really hard to focus on what the holidays are truly about, while still doing the "fun " things wiht our kids. But for example, we do an egg hunt (pretty casual, each kid only had 1 eggs this year), but we don't say the Easter bunny hid them. We just do, it's just a fun things we do. Or their Easter baskets aren't fro the Easter bunny, they're from us. For fun, a gift that we give them because we love them, like Jesus Christ loves us and gave us the ultimate gift.
Hahah wow that's a good price! Yes I do not want my children to lose sight on why we celebrate them! Thanks for reading dear!
Yes! Grace over guilt! It's so much harder to practice than to say, but it's so important 🙂 I felt a little panicky about my kids' Easter basket, even though we consciously chose to do a very small gift for each and a random assortment of candy that my husband and I would share… because the 9 month olds don't need Robin Eggs 😉 But I KNOW they're not going to remember. At all. Why was I still worrying that the set-up wasn't cute or "magical" enough? Hahaha! We put so much silly pressure on ourselves! Your dollbabies look like they had a great day regardless, though 🙂 We need to introduce your redheaded princess to my redheaded prince, btw. 🙂
It sure is!!!!!!!!!!! No, they won't! I hear ya girly! AWWWW redheads are preciousssssssss!
Yes! Grace upon Grace! Glad you still got to have fun, and I'm loving your pics!
So good! I was just thinking about how easily mom guilt takes over, and in the end, it just makes us less able to be there for our kids! Grace upon grace. 🙂