Why do we allow fear to creep in and steal our joy?
We are moms and worry about everything. I have found that since becoming a mom in 2009 I worry about every L I T T L E thing. I fear for things that are totally out of my control.
Last night I was doing my nightly routine with Oakland ( give him his vitamin gummies, probiotic, brush teeth, mommy/son devotional, read story, sing, and pray) and I said I am sad you are growing up. His response was ” It’s okay mommy, I will still be your baby even when I am bigger and when I buy a house you can come over whenever you want.” I just sat there with tears building up and smiled. My son has no idea how much I worry for his future. I worry about kids not liking him because he can be too pushy and bossy at times. I worry about him getting hurt. I worry about him not being good at things. I worry about him not trying his best at school and sports. I worry that he doesn’t eat enough healthy foods. I worry that the bump on his lip is growing back and that he will have to have surgery again ( put him under in Dec. to remove a small piece of tissue on his lip that was growing) I worry about so much and this list is just a FEW things that have to do with Oakland!
Now for a few worries I have for Ainsley….
I worry that she isn’t drinking enough breastmilk. I worry that she won’t reach all of her milestones when she should. I worry that she doesn’t sleep enough. I worry that her bald spots won’t grow her beautiful red hair there. I worry that she won’t get the same one-on-one time with me like her brother did his first 8 months of life.
Do you see how many times I just wrote I worry?????? My life is not about me. I am not in control. A much greater person is and he has everything in control. It is so hard to let him have full control though as a mom. Where does this fear come from? NOT from my heavenly father. I know that for sure.
Here is what the Bible says about F E A R…