Well school starts on Tuesday for my little guy. He’s headed to 2nd grade and I am not headed back to the classroom. I wrote this post in March and announced I wasn’t going to go back to teaching after 7 years. This decision seemed like the right one for our family of 5. I had always wanted to stay home with my kids and be that mom that was able to attend every field trip and be present in the classroom but my teaching career didn’t always allow that.
As I see everyone’s pictures and status’ about getting their classrooms ready it leaves me a little sad. This was a huge part of my life for 7 years. I made the same drive back and forth every single day. These people I worked with were more than co-workers, they were my friends, my family. Now I don’t have that anymore. I won’t make that drive, I won’t see them everyday, I won’t be in that community anymore. The thought of these things is bittersweet and leaves me a bit anxious at times.
What if I’m not cut out for this work from home mom gig? The Lord definitely calls us to different places at different times. This season in my life I have been called to work from home and be present in my kid’s lives more so than I ever have been before.
This scares me a bit. Actually the more I think about it… it scares me a lot. Doing something unfamiliar can be so very scary.
This season will give me more time to dive into the word and join a morning bible study.
This season will lead to new friendships.
This season will give me time to be at their schools.
This season will allow me to get up with all of my kids every morning and send them off to school.
This season will allow me to stay at home all day. I won’t have to get home at 4:30.
This season will hard.
This season will test my patience.
This season will be unlike any other.
This season will bring more home cooked meals to our table.
This season will give me more time with my amazing husband.
This season will be fruitful.
This season will bring me closer to the Lord in a way I haven’t experienced before. I am so faithfully ready for this.
If God brings me to it he will help me through it. I need to depend more on him. I need to depend less on myself. I need to lean on friends and cultivate Godly friendships with Godly women. I yearn for all of this. I am capable of doing all of this.
I say all of this to encourage anyone else going through the exact season. We can do this. We can try new things. It’s okay to be scared.
Much love to you today.